I'm preparing and attempting to make it more real for myself by doing so, but still, the reality is not connecting. I feel a bit like my head is stuffed up, like a nose would be with a cold, and as a result proper functioning is stifled.
I've never done anything so independent like this.
I know if I was leaving with a partner I would be discussing plans constantly, researching and making sure we were on the ball with lists and checking and probably some form of nagging. I'd be with it and so there. Because that's how I am as part of a team. Or when there is a set goal that has been dictated. But as the sole participator (that is until late February :), goal setter and motivator, I'm having a hard time keeping the focus. Doing things for myself and my own goals isn't always easy for me, but I guess that's all part of what I'm trying to learn here. That's what this is about.
I'm excited though. So excited really!
I feel like once I'm on the road I'll have clarity and will grow as I need to. I always feel more like me, and more focused when I travel.
I just love that feeling of being between here and there.
When you are leaving behind what has been done and exchanging it for exciting possibilities. Because no matter if what awaits will turn out to be good or bad, it is a new experience to be had, and valuable for that reason. It is that moment just before the blindfold comes off. It is sinking into a bed with freshly cleaned sheets. It is something white waiting for color.
It feels scary, but amazing.
- Kim
- Kim
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